I have been absent for months now, but there have been some big events with my current situation and a roller coaster of emotions that have followed. That being said, I am in a good place, but still very unsure of my/our future. Hopefully in time, it will be a happy ending.
Well a lot has changed since this time last year. Just over a year ago, I found myself in a deep depression since my husband just left one day went I went to work. It has taken antidepressants, a few therapy sessions, many trips to the gym and several months, but I have gradually gotten back to a “new” normal life without him.
It was not a life that I had ever thought I would be living, but here I was. Afterall, I had found the most wonderful man in the entire world. He was everything I could have ever wanted. After twelve long months, he finally reached out to me. He was in one of his darkest times and I was glad that I was there for him to talk to. Had I not been there, I don’t think he would be here today. We have discussed him coming home, but there would need to be therapy and medication to help move to a more normal life for both of us.
My husband suffers from depression, most likely bipolar depression. Something that he has finally accepted and willing to get help. This is no surprise to me, as I had done research on depression since this whole ordeal began about six to eight weeks after his knee replacement surgery in August of 2016. I have blogged about this in a previous blog.
He has an appointment coming up and we are moving toward a more positive place. We have a long way to go and I don’t know what the future holds for either of us. I have had to push the love and feelings that I have for him so far down so I would no longer feel the hurt. I am still very guarded and have not let and these feelings come to the surface. He has some things he needs to do for himself, but he knows that I am here for him, to support and help him in any way he needs me.
I hope to have a positive update real soon.
